Boredom sets in

So today is day two of our latest winter weather advisery. Supposedly we were supposed to keep getting snow into late this evening, luckily I think we are done with it in Davie County. Schools will be closed yet again tomorrow, but unfortunatly for me Katy (my roomate and best friend) will still have to work which means I still have to watch her kids. Normally this isn't a bad thing persay, but I've been dealing with swelling and bad pains in my right leg for going on two weeks now. I went to the hospital last week and the doctor put me on pain pills. Problem is, they don't reduce the pain. In fact the only thing they're good for is knocking me out cold.....this isn't a good thing when I'm supposed to be taking care of two small children.

Point is.....I'm sick of the snow. I'm ready for weather in the 70's, flowers starting to bloom, and birds waking me up with their spring songs in the morning. I absolutely LOVE the spring....hands down it's probably my favorite season of all. Its the season that makes me constantly stop and take time out daily to admire everything God has given us. What could be better than going on a road trip with some family members or friends and just enjoying the blue skies, green grass and trees, and the crisp warm air that blows your hair when you put your windows down? For me.....NOTHING!!! I love it!! Picnics in the park, hiking through the mountains, frolicing through the fields....call me a giant kid but I long for these things and I can't help but giggle like a giddy school girl when I think about doing them in a few months. It also makes me giddy to think that this year when I do all these things it will be as a "Mrs.", and I'll more than likely be doing them with my hubby! How fun is that?! It might just be the pain pills talking now, but this makes me beyond happy! Jamie is more of a homebody compared to me, but I'm hoping this year we'll spend more time out in the world together. Our Disney trip was a milestone for him....it was his first real vacation, his first time going to an amusement park other than Carowinds, the longest road trip he'd ever been on, and obviously his first time to Flordia. We have GOT to get this boy out more!! He always asks me how I can enjoy going out so much, and why I don't like staying at home. The only answer I can ever think of is this....boredom. I get bored way too easily staying at home. I'm sure there are a million things I could do in all the down time....I could pick up a book I've never read (or start reading the Bible daily), I could get out my pictures and start my scrapbook, I could cook (I love cooking), I could (and should) clean, or I could even turn on the radio and just dance.....I used to love turning on the radio and just dancing around like a fool. The problem is....I hardly ever think to do any of these things. And if they do happen to cross my mind I push them out because I don't "feel" like doing them. Its funny because Sunday morning at church this very problem was brought up by one of our Pastors. He was telling us about how he was trying to watch the football game the night before but couldn't focus on it because he kept thinking about the church. In some ways it made me feel better knowing that I'm not the only person with this problem. Then again I also felt major guilt because while my Pastor was willing to admit that sometimes he puts his focus on the wrong things at the wrong time, I have a HUGE problem admitting it. I have no problem admitting that I get bored easily and that I have a problem focusing at times, but I refuse to see it as a major problem. At times it is. Its a problem when I should be paying attention to the sermon on Sunday but instead I have songs from Rent playing in my head (or when I start to wonder if anyone wil want to grab brunch when the service is over). Its also a problem when I'm trying to work on wedding stuff with my mom but all I can think about is how I want to be with my future hubby. Or when I'm actually with him and we're snuggling together watching a movie and I start wondering if my dog is ok at home. I could go on and on with examples, but I'm sure most of you get the point by now. That point is....there's a time and place for everything. And alot of times most of us get it wrong. We put our energies into things we don't need to, and if you're like me its the worst when its caused by boredom. Like right now, there are a million things that I could (and should) be doing. I could be using this down time to do a devotion, or I could have cooked my own dinner instead of having my dad get me something from Wendy's. But I let the fact that my leg hurts give me an excuse to be lazy and let me spend hours on Facebook instead.

Does this make me a bad person? No. Does it give me a guilty conscience? Totally! Because I know as soon as I post this blog I'll hop right back on Facebook in hopes of finding a friend to chat with because I don't feel like reading tonight. I'm grateful at least that tonight I had the nerves to admit I'm a lazy slacker to myself (and all my followers). Hopefully this means I'll also be willing to take the next step soon....getting off my butt and doing something productive!

Until then...God Bless and have a safe night!
                                                                        ~Shay~